I wrote this some time back, and just uncovered it. Ironically enough its sprung up when I now realise I was contemplating an unnecessary journey, whilst simultaneously wondering which part of me to work on next, should I not take the journey out and make the time to look after myself …So, I thought as it popped into my here and now id share it, see what you make of it along your road to where you are headed. `

Another life gone & passed today 

In front of my eyes, without any say 

Slower steadier than usual 

I’d been travelling along my way 

Hearing some songs id thought so unusual 

Trying to uncover the message she says 

Letting my cares drift away 

As always, I noticed differences 

Along the road ahead 

Those thoughts and feelings, clear to me now 

Things I have or hadn’t said 

The chance I could return to my bed 

How I’d already began to prepare for what I was about to learn up ahead 

My journey, careful, strangely, previously all thought out 

In my mind, I have no doubt 

I was given a warning 

Just somehow 

To adapt, be ready, it’s your time to experience this now 

And as I sat there 

Calm and still 

Watching as that fire filled 

Every cell of the pure clean air 

With death and deletion of someone once there 

With no escape 

Our eyes must have seen 

The cruel realisation 

Of life ending 

I sit and I contemplate my fate 

As simultaneously I felt something take 

What this world once helped to create 

Time lapse again 

Since making that call 

viewing through eyes of one and all 

Watching our emergency services start 

Knowing how close they are to my heart 

Ash and remnants cover my merc 

All around knowing god had already been and done his share of the work 

I really did sit & contemplate life 

Ironically enough before the damage 

I’m often asked how do I manage 

I guess it’s just another piece of the puzzle and my thoughts as I was travelling 

Observing my role ‘as wife’ 

And despite that fight I witnessed before me 

Fire so bright an image so clear to me 

No stranger to fire or death it’s not news to me 

examining 

But what does this part of my journey bring to me? 

And as I sat there 

Reality check 

Here’s me, so caught up in god dam tech! 

Today I take notice and heed how I slowed 

From this I learn I have definitely grown 

How loosely we say the word ‘explode’ 

Constant admission of survival mode 

I realise witness truly admire I haven’t gone 

I am very much here 

Focused and clear 

All of my faculties, responses switched on 

With every facet and every layer 

I learnt from the moment 

I whispered that final prayer 

R.I.P 

I was with you my dear 

Sadly, your journey had to end here 

Stay safe out there along your journey which is life!..